my resolve is waning

so, i went to the gym on monday. walked, didn't run. i didn't feel well. tired and stuffed up.

i didn't lift weights on Tuesday. i still didn't feel well and wanted to sleep in.

i walked again yesterday. 21 minutes. 3.0 incline.

and again, today, i didn't lift weights in the morning. i am thinking i'll do it at lunch, but i think my book will win out over huffing it over to the gym.

my clothes are fitting a bit better, but i haven't gotten up enough courage to try on the stuff that has been tight for the last few months.

i guess the good thing is that i am going to the gym, even when i don't want to. it always seems to happen that i start working out and then i get sick. and not really, truly sick. but i start to feel run-down. i have this post-nasal drip going on which is making my throat raw and swollen. and i am just achingly tired. occasionally i feel feverish, but i don't have a way of telling if i am or not. sometimes feeling this way is enough to make me stop working out, but this time i want to work past it. i don't know if it's an immune system response to my working harder or if it's because i'm in close quarters with people who aren't wiping down their machines after using them.

if it doesn't go away by next wednesday, i'm going to the damn doctor. not that he'll be able to do anything about it.